Well, there is some stuff going on in my life right now, I really can't say too much here. Sorry to anyone who actually cares. A lot of this journal stuff is just for me. Really I don't want to force people into reading this stuff. I want anyone who cares to read if they feel like it. But writing this stuff down makes me feel a little lighter.

I need to relax before the school year starts, but some things seem to be making it a bit...difficult for me to do so. I need to get rid of the difficulty but there is something stopping me. Its like I need the difficulty in my life. I know I will never be rid of it. I just wish it would give me a break every now and again.

Guess I kind of can't wait for school to start again, I need something to keep my mind off of a bunch of things that are going on right now. I need to think about something when I can't think of other things. There are times when the things that are going on in my personal life need to be drowned out with something else. Something that will eventually be productive. Plus I will be working and volunteering all at the same time. I will have hardly any time to focus on my personal issues I hope that is a good thing. I really hope I won't drown my personal life and other stuff going on in it. There are things that I can't bear to lose. I really don't need to be an emotional wreck at any time this year.

Both of my semesters are pretty hard. I will have homework to distract me and I will have classes to go to and I won't be able to take any sick days. I will have to go everyday. If I miss any days it will be really bad. I will have a lot to catch up on. I think English will be nice to go back to

It will be nice to see my friends everyday again too ... I need that. Especially right now.