I really needed to sit down and type for a while I need to do this for me. I don't so much as feel like I'm falling apart anymore. My life feels pretty together right now. We will see how that holds up in the next few days and weeks. I will really need Ken and my friends then. I really hope they don't all abandon me in my time of need. I wouldn't be able to handle that.

But I got a shock today. One that I was never expecting. One of my friends revealed to me a secret that I really can't tell anyone. And I really hate it. I mean not that I want to go out and tell everyone and their uncle. But I really can't even tell my parents. I know why he doesn't want everyone knowing, its because I don't think he wants to have stupid special treatment from everyone. Its going to be hard now knowing, not to treat him differently. But because he is one of my best friends, I will try my very best.

I had to get that out.

Thank you.