My life has taken a turn for the down side I suppose you could say. Though I have the newest version of the first part of my book online now I feel like shit and I don't really want to be alive right now. I have people bugging me about things left right and centre. I am like a telephone fiend. I never seem to get off the god damned phone. But then again. I don't know if I really want to get off the phone. When I'm not on the phone it seems lonely where I am. Even if my mother is home. It still seems very lonely.