Well I guess I could write about this:

My boyfriend and I recently had a talk about depression, he said that he was getting a little depressed and what not, so I got worried and wanted to talk to him about it and we did. But while we were talking I realized that I have been very depressed in the past little while. Its hard for me to avoid it, but I have been. I suppose I have been trying to ignore it by never being alone, but I always fail at that somehow. Like I am alone now. It is really hard to resist certain urges I have. I don't like them, but they are like a not-so-subtle addiction. I don't think I will be able to control them for much longer.